Hear My Dance

2012-02-12T02:20:00.001+08:00

I wish I can get whatever I want

but no I'm being selective of what I want today.

Because there's reasons and there's a much

clearer vision of why I would choose just that.

2012-02-11T01:28:00.004+08:00

I knew a boy who was swallowed by the sky
By the flashing lights
I knew a man who got lost in the big dull blue
And came out alive

I knew a boy, I knew a man
Who looked a lot like you

I knew a time that you could stand beside
never rushing by
I knew a place you'd go that your head could explode
Into peace of mind

I knew a time, a knew a place
It felt a lot like you
I knew a boy, I knew a man
Who looked a lot like you

Just like you

I knew a friend who would hold on to the flames
Keep them from burning you
I knew a smile I could see through all of the stars
that the world had thrown

I knew a smile, I knew a friend
That looked a lot like you
I knew a boy, I knew a man
Who looked a lot like you

- Patrick Watson

Happy 23rd.
Keep. Dreaming. Big.

2012-01-27T00:52:00.003+08:00

its hard to put things in words
when u're sad
or happy

trying to write down the thoughts I'm having for my last project.
Took time and space to understand what's been written before
I could present it later. Being excited about a certain topic makes
it easy but difficult at the same time. I don't know if I would
ever experience this again in years to come. I wish I can.

2012-01-22T01:34:00.003+08:00

is there even a need to solve other things when there's one matter really
close to your heart that needs to be helped and cared for. Is there also a
need to bother about your feelings anymore when someone out there is
having a struggle that no one can ever understand or relate to. Would you
even have the appetite to enjoy a piece of cake when there's someone out
there living in fear and darkness, waiting to be saved by anyone who is
willing enough to sit by her side and listen to her worries. Who cares
anymore about anything else when someone you love so much needs
you, more than ever before.

I see everything being nothing now. A moment when prioritising plays a huge part in my life..
And as a design student, which is more important?

2012-01-04T21:47:00.002+08:00

....its that passion that drives you.."

In the mission to get it back if there even was.
Hopefully God could guide me in this because its been days that
I've felt the need of passion and life in my works. To me, its never
gonna work if I were to keep searching. It will be too late. What
else am I gonna do if its not what I'm living for now.

And I'm kinda excited to help Bro with his kids projects.
Its packaging, with the artworks done by the kids, for a good cause.
Brilliant.

2012-01-02T01:05:00.001+08:00

Happy 2012.

Wish everyone is safe with the one they love and care for.

And dreamers, like me, to keep holding on to that dreams.

and yes, I'm learning to "let go, of hopes, demands and wishes."

2011-12-27T08:37:00.002+08:00

2011-12-26T00:18:00.001+08:00

when you would take hundreds of years to know and understand and trust someone
but its never enough. and when you need to be special to mean 'the whole world.'
It makes you give that silly smile out on your face. How can that be. Impossible.

2011-12-21T03:00:00.002+08:00

Let it die and get out of my mind
We don't see eye to eye
Or hear ear to ear

Don't you wish that we could forget that kiss
And see this for what it is
That we're not in love

The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start

It was hard to tell just how I felt
To not recognize myself
I started to fade away

And after all it won't take long to fall in love
Now I know what I don't want
I learned that with you

The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start
The tragedy starts from the very first spark
Losing your mind for the sake of your heart
The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start

- Feist

2011-12-20T03:43:00.002+08:00

when a person tries to make connections with you through
words & letters,to show that they're not tired of you when he/she
is supposed to. He/she may be trying hard to squeeze in between
the time given to send those words & letters to you to make you feel
like you are remembered. They make your days feel lighter and
much more happier. There's fun and joy that only they could feel
when word & letters were sent in those spaces between them. And
this could probably be the best days of their lives.

2011-12-19T00:35:00.000+08:00

And What I am to you is not real
What I am to you, you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask for the sea

2011-12-12T02:47:00.001+08:00

2011-12-12T01:51:00.001+08:00

Feels at ease with mum and dad to nag around and scold me
Feels at ease when sisters get irritating after work
Feels at ease when bro talk about teaching
Feels at ease when I'm at home
Feels at ease when i have friends who are willing to be there for me
Feels at ease when someone I care, is safe wherever

2011-12-10T00:17:00.001+08:00

I wanna eat a burger. A huge one.

2011-12-08T01:10:00.001+08:00

Updates:

Met up with a friend who is now a full time designer. I don't quite like this idea.

Received my semester result few minutes ago but that doesn't mean
I won't be designing after school ends.

Caught myself getting sick of certain repetitions (which never happened before)
but then, there is one thing that I would want to repeat, forever.

2011-12-02T20:00:00.000+08:00

' take my hand and run fast'

2011-11-24T03:57:00.002+08:00

It gets really irritating when you can't do anything for someone who has always been there since you were born. I feel stupid most of the time, knowing that even if I have an idea to help that somebody, it won't work. I'm still thinking of a way. Or perhaps a solution. Meanwhile, I'm in the midst of completing a project which is to be submitted and presented on the coming monday. I can handle it. Haven't been as calm before.

2011-11-22T02:55:00.001+08:00

some things come late

they should have come earlier

but then, it won't feel that special

what if it comes even later?

2011-11-18T03:30:00.001+08:00

oh man, it feels overwhelming.

and I miss borough market.

2011-11-16T19:27:00.002+08:00

Design. Basically one thing I do, whole heartedly. I'm back home and to design again. To put things together with full concentration. I wish it can be what I've always wanted it to be. Good luck to me.

2011-11-10T04:19:00.005+08:00

In the end, it all come back to you. Whether you find this life amazing or just something to live in. I think too much. Especially on how to live, next. I brought myself into a situation in my head that no one can ever picture. It gets more and more difficult to carry along as time goes by. And then I decided to settle onto one spot which is safe but not to my liking at all. I saw myself standing alone. Nowhere to go. It was scary. Everyone else were busy, minding their own lives. I felt lonely. I got numb later. That's when I could only say..

"the rest is up to Him."

2011-11-02T22:48:00.005+08:00

Afternoon around school campus, Loughborough. Took a picture of my classmate

right after our thesis consultations. Felt relieved that I'm on the right track. Much

happier when I was told the dateline is much further away.

2011-11-02T05:02:00.004+08:00

11 more days and I'll fly back home. I miss everyone. Been doing work, doing work and doing nothing.Had fun with new people and we turn into something deeper. Fall in love with what I see and hear. Sometimes they make me wanna stay but sometimes I really feel I'm not supposed to be here. I can't wait to be with what I used to call 'the usual.'

2011-10-12T05:06:00.001+08:00

you know you love somebody

when you can live without him/her

only for a few nights.

2011-10-02T06:07:00.002+08:00

I'm not good at hiding and I got to say..my days in UK have made me realise so much more than before. This whole journey is teaching me to dig out the things I've hidden deep down, to have it put infront of my face and explain what its all about. Caught myself speechless but there you are, people who would guide me. My friends. This period of my life will be one of the most remembered. I'm sure.

Will upload picture for ya soon.

2011-09-16T11:39:00.001+08:00

maybe, I'll get a copy of Feist latest album there.

omg...yes.

2011-09-14T15:05:00.000+08:00

oh man. Nervousss

time to tell the story

time to do some DESIGN!

and yeah 5 more days to flyyyyy

2011-09-12T01:41:00.000+08:00

Amazing.

Flying to London 7 days time.

Not excited at all. Just overwhelmed by stuffs.

2011-09-10T20:05:00.000+08:00

http://arareride.tumblr.com/

2011-09-10T19:01:00.000+08:00

For once in my life I have someone who needs me
Someone I've needed so long
For once, unafraid, I can go where life leads me
And somehow I know I'll be strong

For once I can touch what my heart used to dream of
Long before I knew
Someone warm like you
Would make my dreams come true

For once in my life I won't let sorrow hurt me
Not like it's hurt me before
For once, I have something I know won't desert me
I'm not alone anymore

For once, I can say, this is mine, you can't take it
As long as I know I have love, I can make it
For once in my life, I have someone who needs me

Stevie Wonder

2011-09-08T17:31:00.002+08:00

As u grow up, you'll learn the value of letting go.

Aiseyman, this is happening to me. Haha. Surprising, I'm okay with it.

2011-09-07T23:48:00.000+08:00

http://www.behance.net/Nikolo

I likee

2011-09-04T00:09:00.002+08:00

lala whatever. Camwhore.

2011-09-01T23:57:00.001+08:00

Feeling lost one kind.

Dad

2011-09-01T01:44:00.002+08:00

My favourite thing about Raya is having him around even

in an awkward photo with just both of us in it.

2011-08-28T03:46:00.000+08:00

in progress. The Softhearted project.

2011-08-28T02:23:00.000+08:00

2011-08-26T01:10:00.002+08:00

Jade Claude. Was watching her in 'Stolen Kisses' for class.

In the Sun

2011-08-25T01:53:00.005+08:00

Workplace in class. Right infront.

Thats Eleanor and Patuma.

We were all building walls with windows and holes.

Attendance taken here every morning.

I am sure its gonna be this clean, only for now. Hah.

2011-08-25T01:10:00.000+08:00

2011-08-23T03:08:00.001+08:00

Riding on this know-how
Never been here before
Peculiarly entrusted
Possibly that's all
Is history recorded?
Does someone have a tape?
Surely, I'm no pioneer
Constellations stay the same

Just a little bit of danger
When intriguingly
Our little secret
Trusts that you trust me
'Cause no one will ever know
That this was happening
So tell me why you listen
When nobody's talking

What is there to know?
All this is what it is
You and me alone
Sheer simplicity

What is there to know?
All this is what it is
You and me alone
Sheer simplicity

What is there to know?
All this is what it is
You and me alone
Sheer simplicity

2011-08-22T00:13:00.001+08:00

Trying hard to find the 'excitement' of being alone at night again.

Hard, really hard. The best thing is to sleep I guess..

2011-08-21T15:00:00.001+08:00

Quite in the mood for Raya already. Haha.

That's one of my favourite malay kueh, Suji.

2011-08-19T22:27:00.008+08:00

Have been busy with school lately. A lot more thinking and everyday starts with reading something to get my brain workin. Its a practice now. At school, its mostly sharing, discussing, analysing, conceptualising, crapping, laughing...its verbal all the way. Haha. I've been talking a lot these days haha. I love my class too.

Fasting month is ending soon. I'm going for somewhere far soon, too. Feelings and thoughts that I used to treasure are surprisingly fading for no reason too. Part of me hates this but another is just going with the flow.

Bought myself a masterpiece too. Underscore Magazine.

Check it out. Its beautiful outside and inside.

http://www.underscoremagazine.com/index.html

2011-08-18T00:41:00.003+08:00

" Because you have never been in a situation like hers.

You won't know how it feels like. It hurts."

Oh yeah? I'll try then.

2011-08-17T01:24:00.001+08:00

2011-08-14T23:02:00.000+08:00

Where can I go without you?

2011-08-13T23:12:00.001+08:00

2011-08-12T02:32:00.000+08:00

Writing. Writing. Writing.

and I'm missing many people.

2011-08-07T02:28:00.000+08:00

I love this cd cover of the Sea and Cake.

And its now my tiny wallpaper, right in the middle.

2011-08-05T01:53:00.001+08:00

notes, diaries, sketches

houses, rooftops, red

messages, calls, comments

much much needed now

2011-07-31T01:34:00.000+08:00

so much to tell ya.

soon yeah (:

2011-07-27T20:33:00.000+08:00

...with an open mind, open heart and come back with brand new eyes.."

2011-07-27T01:08:00.000+08:00

2011-07-27T00:43:00.000+08:00

2011-07-25T00:58:00.002+08:00

28 July - Orientation
1 aug - Semester starts

So soon. I need some more days to catch up with some people.

2011-07-25T00:42:00.002+08:00

rip the universe in two,
one for me and one for you

2011-07-24T17:23:00.002+08:00

I love this cup. You can only find it at my grandma's place.

Once you find it, you'll feel home right away.

2011-07-24T17:05:00.003+08:00

Letters. Quotes. Lines. Dots.

And a pen.

2011-07-24T03:06:00.001+08:00

this is the time when

the heart controls the mind

but hell yeah, its never gonna go away

I'll let it be then.

And I'm home (:

2011-07-17T16:28:00.002+08:00

http://www.foodjimoto.com/2011/04/pizza-pot-pie.html

cravinggg attackss

Let it die.

2011-07-17T15:27:00.003+08:00

Been occupied, visiting my aunt after her surgery. I had some space these days to think about things and people. Sometimes, its mentally tiring. Sometimes, I need to. Its like some kind of routine for me to make sure that I've met and say 'hi' again to some people after a certain period of time or I'll feel lifeless. And then we'll share stories, heart stories and sad stories. And then I would only listen. Have them recorded in my mind for a very long time. And then they would be become reminders like dusty books on dust shelves. Some of it has got nothing to do with me but they got me wanna keep them forever.

2011-07-14T14:23:00.002+08:00

http://arareride.tumblr.com

a little flowery these days

2011-07-14T14:17:00.000+08:00

http://bestrawberry.tumblr.com

2011-07-13T22:13:00.002+08:00

out, torn. Haha.

2011-07-12T01:41:00.001+08:00

http://kitchen-confidante.com/fireworks-pasta-salad-recipe

wanna tryy!

2011-07-11T18:06:00.000+08:00

pwettyy

2011-07-11T02:06:00.002+08:00

http://youtu.be/ZJAT6jR99qY

Take a step and come out of the shade

2011-07-10T02:30:00.001+08:00

The truth is..I've never really get sick of anybody.

Probably, I'll never be.

2011-07-09T22:49:00.002+08:00

When u've live your life with somebody, it saddens you more when some things are not told truthfully. But then, it doesnt matter at the end of the day because this is one of the liars worth lovin. I hope its not repeated so much because again, I would like to say..I may get sick of you one day.

2011-07-08T19:10:00.002+08:00

http://1000scientists.com

2011-07-08T17:41:00.002+08:00

Oh man. You made my heart skip a beat.

2011-07-08T16:26:00.000+08:00

http://tilty.tumblr.com

2011-07-07T00:57:00.002+08:00

Wish she would come here again for another decorate.

2011-07-05T17:33:00.001+08:00

2011-07-04T23:50:00.001+08:00

I've never felt as hungry and possessive as now, before.

2011-07-04T02:12:00.001+08:00

http://ffffound.com

2011-07-04T01:36:00.003+08:00

Its torturing having oat for dinner. So, I added in some crunchy nuts, hoping to make it edible. I don't really have appetite for anything nice already. I would have anything healthy now. The thought of living longer has been encouraging me to throw the habits that are not healthy for me. Bit by bit..getting used to it. I have to. I got to.

The thought of school is making me excited too. Hah. I wanna pick up the pencil every night and write.draw somethin. Like now.

2011-07-03T02:17:00.000+08:00

They say

let go, let go

when you love somebody.

It was hard for me but I understand it all now.

2011-07-02T03:09:00.002+08:00

I have a friend who's gonna leave me

for a faraway place because

she needs to get a peace of mind.

But how am I suppose to deal with that?

2011-07-02T01:42:00.000+08:00

2011-07-01T01:39:00.000+08:00

http://noctiphobia.tumblr.com

hmmm..

2011-07-01T01:32:00.000+08:00

2011-07-01T01:02:00.003+08:00

Woah.

I get tired after only a few hours of some vector illustrations which consist only letters. And these letters are not created from scratch. Very bad very bad. My level of patience is not as high as before too. I'm not sure whats happening to my brain though.Sometimes, I feel I have no more creative juices left for the upcoming school which is starting on the 25th.

Sometimes, I believe, there is. I donno, I'll just go with the flow. I'll probably be breathing underwater, again. But then, so what. I've gotten used to that kind of survival mode. What's yours?

2011-06-30T15:54:00.001+08:00

Perfect. Although its been days...

2011-06-30T15:28:00.003+08:00

We hate different things

And different tastes

How people sing

What they create

Want to feel the illusion

The confusion

2011-06-28T00:53:00.001+08:00

http://youmustcreate.tumblr.com/

2011-06-27T02:03:00.001+08:00

Its a all-for-myself day.

2011-06-26T16:48:00.001+08:00

http://loveyourchaos.tumblr.com

2011-06-25T23:13:00.001+08:00

http://1000scientists.com/

2011-06-25T02:31:00.002+08:00

Quiet

2011-06-25T01:42:00.005+08:00

trying so hard to stop something

could even make you want more of it

whatever u're imagining now,

I'm probably trying to save myself

from being the most childish person alive

but then,

I love it how I could be one

right beside someone.

If you know what I mean.

2011-06-23T01:18:00.003+08:00

oh yeah

i don't know if you will ever leave

2011-06-23T00:56:00.001+08:00

like it all that way

2011-06-22T17:15:00.001+08:00

there's some things in life that keep you going

mine have always been there

2011-06-21T00:07:00.002+08:00

first picture took with my new baby (;

perhaps the happiest person now. Hah. I'm a mac user from now on.

2011-06-19T21:40:00.000+08:00

Isabel Fraire

2011-06-19T21:29:00.000+08:00

cute

2011-06-19T21:24:00.001+08:00

http://loveyourchaos.tumblr.com

2011-06-19T17:47:00.001+08:00